the other side of me

2010-01-19T11:28:00.003+08:00

Even if my heart's still beating just for you

I really know you are not feeling like I do

And even if the sun is shining over me

How come I still freeze ?

No one ever sees, no one feels the pain

I shed teardrops in the rain...

2010-01-08T11:55:00.001+08:00

as human, sometimes we tend to get greedy...

asking for more than what we could ask for...

but this time, i just wanna believe that...

God has better plans for me therefore im still waiting patiently...

2009-12-16T01:01:00.010+08:00

when your weekend is filled with love...

i know its been awhile since i lasted updated this humble space of mine. so, i've decided to give everyone (wonder if there's anyone who's reading anyways...) an update on life for a bit.

its the holidays right now... my final one before i hide myself behind projects or FYP. thus, trying to make the most out of it, i try to make it worthwhile... and of course, it has proven to be!

why so? cos of a particular event called Seoul'd Out 2009 that happened on the 12th dec. yeah, so you guys may be aware of my love for K-pop so its no surprise to hear that i went for it, isn't it? hahaha... what can i say? K-pop rules my life (you'd know what i mean if you read the Sunday Times on the 13th dec. (; )

anyways, Seoul'd Out was AWESOMEE!!~~ totally worth the pricing although i had to endure standing for a few hours to see the awesome, wonderful acts. but heck, i don't care all that...

what matters was i enjoyed the whole show and enjoyed with the bunch of loveliess who were superb! my darlinggs, Sue, Faz and Ain, you guys were great and happening!~ILYG

okay, let's talk about the whole Seoul'd out weekend shall we? ehhehehhe.. so, the K-pop fun came in as early as the starting of the week when i received a call regarding an interview. was all eggcited for it and i just had to rope in my darlinggs to do the interview with me! thankfully they're an awesome bunch who agreed readily.. hehe! so, thursday was scheduled down for an interview and photo shoot at Etude House (hahahaha.. LMH! geee) around noon. unfortunately, Sue couldn't make it as she had sch so, i met up with the 2 darlinggs. it was fun and funny! cos we 3 were colour coordinated even when we didn't plan anything together and we were so hyper during the whole thing. we laughed, danced and even had to posed with LMH in front of the shop. at first, abit malu yeah.. but later on, who cares.. hahaha! so, that's how i ended up in the front page of lifestyle with my 2 other loveliess! LOL... the reported was impressed by our hyper selves and she was thankful that we weren't embarrassed or shy. hahaha..

but that didn't stop there... she conducted an interview with my other loveliess, Sue included at starbucks and later we girls, hanged around at my place till evening. Sue and i had our korean class so all of us left to do our own stuffs before meeting again at 8.30pm at T2 of changi airport. wondering why changi airport? ahhahaha... cos we were there to fetch or rather WELCOME the boys from Seoul. hehehehe... as expected, there were throngs of fans by the time we reached there. most of them were FTI fans. as for me, i was just eggcited to see all of them.hehehe..

friday...well, i was supposed to stay home but that didn't happen. instead, went out to meet Faz darlingg to accompany her see T-Max gracing the opening event of HMV @313. it was totally worth going cos we got wonderful fancams! hahaha.. and i swear, at that event itself, i started falling for T-Max. they're such a crowd pleaser.. i hope they'd come back for more things or have their own concert here! hmmm.. that will be awesome laaa..we then headed down to KTO trying our luck to see all the stars as they were holding the meet-and-greet session for winners. unfortunately, our stomach gave in to waiting for them, so we decided to forgo and headed for lunch. ahhahaha.. after which, we head home to catch MuBank at my place and then headed out again...

we're not the sort who chases or stalks these stars... we're more of those people who just tries and see if we're lucky. so, we hanged around marina square since their hotel was just marina madarin.. LOL but we wern't going to wait in front of the lobby.. instead we walked around and found ourselves towards flyer..and our HAN river. LOL

sat...the event day itself. met Sue and Faz at 11am.. had lunch and went to the concert venue.. although the concert started only in the evening, the queue formed was already long the moment we reached there...thank goodness, it wasn't so bad. once the event started, eevryone was on their feet pushing, trying to get a good view to see the stars.i was thankful that where i stood was a pretty good view.. no fancams, no photos as Faz and Sue were the photographer and videographer respectively. Faz's pictures were awesomeeee. HD clear!! LOL

performance wise, i enjoyed every performances. Mario really got the crowd moving... too bad he's pretty unknown except for his famous song from My Girl OST. and Lee Ji Soo... who would have thought he sang my favourite song out of My Girl OST. and he's only a year older..gee, amazing! as for T-Max, wow!! double wow!! they were awesomeee.. Min Chul was hyper and he really worked the crowd..Park Yun Hwa.. was pretty and good too! amazing vocals and cute!!Kim Jun..he sounds amazingly fierce when he raps.. i likeeee..hahaha

next was FTI... a slight heartbreak as they performed. it pains me to see them performing on that day. somehow, i felt that Hong Gi and SeungHyun weren't really enjoying themselves. it felt more like they were just being there for the sake of it. hmmm.. i could be wrong. and lastly, Brown Eyed Girls... the crowd were screaming for their attention!! especially fanboys!! LOL they were awesomee.. and hawwttt!! (:

sun.. their departures... honestly, i was super tired from all those that happened for the past 3 days that i didn't really want to send them off. but i thought that i'd feel incomplete for not saying goodbye to them so i went down to the airport..neither of us had a concrete details of their flight etc..so, we just went there to see if we weren't too late..just as i managed to meet up with Sue, we saw T-Max coming. they were heading for the check-in area. i managed to say bye to Min Chul and he replied back.. haha! thanks Min Chul oppa! (: however, i felt sad and bad for Faz, as she missed the chance and i knew how badly she wanted to see them and for breaking the news that T-Max left the moment she met up with us...urghhhh! then it was FTI... i wanted to wish Jaejin an early birthday so, Faz and i both wished him while he walked past us.. and he acknowledge it!!~~ hahahaha another one to add to the list of CHEEKS, LIPS and TOUCH!! i managed to fancam them and although i felt down for not able to say bye to Hong gi, but i was glad to hear that he was in a better mood that day! thank god!~

it was wonderful to see how much love these stars received and how they gave back the love to us through their awesome performances. it was definitely worth the whole experience. (: thank you for the wonderful memories to make my 2009 feel more complete.

2009-12-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

in this weather...

it adds up to the sadness im feeling...

why oh why...

2009-12-02T09:38:00.005+08:00

a birthday shout out...

im awake this morning to dedicate a special birthday shout out going out to a very special girl out there... my lovely, wonderful, lovable UNNIE, SUEEEEE!!~~ <3<3

its your birthday babe!

a BIG HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY GOING OUT ESPECIALLY TO YOU!!~~

im hoping that you're gonna have a blast on this special day okie? whatever dreams, wishes you have, i hope and pray that one day..IT'LL COME TRUE!! (:

okay, so here comes my real shout out.. hehehe..

SUEE..hmm, how can i describe you? haha...

A FUN, LOVELY, FUNNY and GILER GIRL!!~~

all that adds up to the fun moments we share. (:

i've known you a while back...since sec school.

but back then, we weren't close. although i knew you,

i only see and respected you as a senior in school.

it never came across to my mind that we'll be this close.(:

i admired you for being in one of the top 4E classes. other

than that, i don't think we ever did have conversations like we

do now. we lost in touch of each other as everyone moved out

of the sec school phase. but its as if fate arranged for us to meet

again...we walked into each other's life once again!

THANK YOU FT ISLAND!! hehehe.. for if not for your

showcase, i'd would never meet her again!(:

now things change, we're as close as we can be.

i love you UNNIE, from the bottom of my heart.

for being a wonderful, caring and understanding unnie to me.(:

helping me whenever you could without complaining at all.

i know its gonna take a while to repay back and i feel bad.

but i'll try to repay back slowly but surely.(:

if there's one thing i wished and hope for you, its

definitely you to find a good guy who understands and loves you!~

and also, to have all our KPOP dreams coming true!!

YEAHHH!!~~~

I LOVE YOU GIRL!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN!!~~

2009-11-15T17:40:00.002+08:00

stop trying to get her back...

she ain't coming...

she's gone...

gotta be moving on...

2009-11-12T20:27:00.005+08:00

"listen to my heartbeat. its beating for you. listen to my heartbeat. its waiting for you..."

assessment's over yet i feel as though there's something unrest that still needs

to be done. can i really do my FYP and get the results i want...

i sure hope so...

2009-10-21T22:47:00.001+08:00

dilemma...

can i get what i asked or truly want...

or do i want what im about to get...

only time will reveal the truth...

2009-10-20T00:27:00.001+08:00

its time...

to put everything back into place...

and set priorities straight...

2009-09-13T01:29:00.003+08:00

PARK JAEBEOM, OUR LEADJA...

Jay...

your departure saddens me greatly

although i wished you'd pull through and stayed on

but you being you...

taking up that responsibility you have to carry out..

you made a decision to save others from getting bashed

although the main victim was you..

you are truly a leader, one that's not afraid to protect his group..

even if the decision was hard to make...

i believe you'll be back someday..sooner or later..

its all up to you.. but im sure you'll be back facing the world

with a better, stronger person than you are now..

as of now...i'll be here waiting and supporting 2PM and you unwaveringly...

come back cos you know.. 2PM 's leader still is YOU...

once a 2PM, always a 2PM. <3

2PM's not complete if 1 member is missing...

2009-09-13T00:40:00.007+08:00

trying period.

it represents my mourning for Park JaeBeom of 2PM with his sudden

withdrawal from the group.

what started as a bashing became something that went out of hand. no one saw it coming, at least not i... thought the whole issue would have died down after a week or so, but it took turn for the worse instead. no one wanted that to happened, im sure..

080909... a breaking news came knocking at my door. shattered not just my heart but Hottest hearts all over the world. things took place a tad too quickly, leaving fans crying and begging not to go... even footages and songs of 2PM seems hard to watch or listen these days..

its been 5 days since he left and flew back to Seattle..

2009-08-18T23:50:00.005+08:00

BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUT GOING TO...

KWON JIYONG aka G DRAGON

the producer, the leader and the fashionista.

the unique and talented one.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOING OUT ESPECIALLY TO YOUU!!

CONGRATS ON YOUR NEW SOLO RELEASE TOO!!

arghhh!! i can't blog longer cos i can't think of more things to say but anyhoo, i miss BIG BANG!

oh oh.. and and...

HAPPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO...

HAILWA aka AMY

you're 21 now babe! UNNIEEE~~~

hahahah.

okay, i sincerely hope you like what me and sue gave yea?

use it okays! ahhaaha.

and...just to let you know, we're always here for you.

anytime, anywhere.

ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVORS!!

I LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU!! JIYONG OPPA AND AMY UNNIE!~~

ahahahaha. (:

2009-08-15T16:07:00.000+08:00

its been a while...

sorry for neglecting this little space of mine. been busy with school and other stuffs that are occupying my life right now. and laziness to update this space sometimes just overcomes me..haha. life's been good, i guess...

alot of things are happening and going to take place. most of which, just push me harder to achieve them. for now, i can't wait for FASTING month as its the time for me to save some ka-ching!!! especially for DEC 2010!!

shall do my updates later... toodles!

2009-07-24T22:56:00.006+08:00

YR 3 HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEE...

im officially back to school since monday. a change of lecturers here and there but i guess its good to see some new faces.the week started and ended smoothly too.. although the projects are slowing starting to pile up, i believe i can handle them if my time management's right. a gentle reminder for self: DMP's project 1 due on the 3rd week!

i need to sit and think of what to major soon. its been bugging me for the whole vacation and im in serious need of some serious thinking. hmmm..

oh yeah, FT Island's back with their 3rd Album and my, the songs are really different from their previous albums.its refreshing and catchy especially their title track, "I Hope". its really growing on me that its on repeat mode right now.. hahaha. and although i wasn't digging Hong Gi's new hairstyle at first, i think im getting used to it now. (:

here's the video with eng subs, so cuteee cannnnn!!

credits:CJWTown

Anyone game for Seoul in Dec 2010?? (:

and oh.. Esther, i've finally linked you!!~~ (: same goes to Fazzy and Suee(:

2009-07-04T23:52:00.005+08:00

270609 - A Date To Remember ALWAYS(: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

alright, so I understand that the date was a week ago but heck, the memories are still fresh in my mind. 270609, will be a date I will remember considering that fact it was FT Island's showcase in Singapore.

yesyes, I've been talking alot about them lately which goes to show my love for them but going to the showcase nearly didn't take place if not for my indesicive character! Decided to go only on the morning itself but heck, what a fun day it turned out to be.. although the ticket burnt a hole in my pocket but nothing stopped me from meeting the guys! ♥

showcase was awesome..made a couple of new friends and even got to meet some old friends. haha.. the power of fandoms!

anyways, the most precious thing to me and my other two friends would definitely be the cheek, the kiss and the TOUCH respectively. (:

hmmm.. its been a week yet I WANT THEM BACK SOOON!
LEE HONG GI, CHOI JONG HOON, LEE JAEJIN, SONG SEUNG HYUN and CHOI MINHWAN<333333

oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AKANISHI JIN!!!
I wonder how you're doing there and who you celebrated with. anyhoo, I wish you all the best in everything you do and keep on shining! ♥

2009-06-10T17:33:00.002+08:00

WANT vs NEED

between these two, there's a THIN line of differences. often, we mixed up our wants for our needs. but priorities come first, don't they? at times, you try to squeeze everything as a need, but you know in actual fact, its a want.

I WANT TO SEE HONG GI!

I NEED TO CLEAR MY VACATION MODULE!

it wasn't an easy decision. letting go of something i've been looking forward to something that i dread taking. sorry Hong Gi, looks like i have to miss attending your showcase, FT Island. School is what i need to prioritise first.

I PROMISE THAT THE NEXT TIME FT ISLAND COMES, I"LL BE THERE!!

FT ISLANDDDD.. meeanhamnida..

2009-06-01T11:15:00.002+08:00

okay, as promised.. my THANK YOU SPEECH..

to those who texted, wrote on my fb wall, called and wished me personally, I THANKED YOU from the bottom of my heart.

To Mischa, thank you for that Lovely bouquet of flower you gave me. alot of ppl thought it was given by someone special BUT you are SPECIAL! haha

To Hidayah, thank you love for that touching entry dedicated to me. Secondary sch days are the days we learn alot. Litereally. hahahha.. and i understand how you feel girlfriend at that particular period when you hated me, I'd be feeling the same way too.. but hey, we've all moved on from that episode in life. so yeahhh..

hmmm.. the rest, you know i love you! that's the most IMPT thing you need to know! hahah

well, although this year wasn't as happening as last year's celebration.. for a change i like the peace and quite way of celebrating my birthday.

oh wells, a year older, a year wiser... a year to look forward and move on.

you're no longer part of that memory i wished to hold on to. you're just the wind that will blow away. thank you!

2009-05-31T23:36:00.004+08:00

okay, before the day ends...
before the start of a new day...
i just wanna do a shout out saying...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!!~~

yes, yes we share the SAME birthdays except YEARS apart! hahas..
as for the thank you speech, i'll do it tomorrow instead! hahas..

2009-05-21T14:45:00.002+08:00

on a side note, the event's almost 95% confirmed. excited like hell i am, i can't wait till i can actually spread the news for the world. hahaaaa...

and THAT will be my biggest birthday present then! hahas. the ULTIMATE present i can get!
weeeeeeeee~~~

2009-05-20T12:09:00.004+08:00

im super duper bored. yesterday was packing day for me and today's just-sit-and-rot day! hahaha..

anw, since i've mentioned the topic of birthday..YES, my birthday is coming soon.how i feel about it? haha. normal as much.and a couple of ppl has been bugging me about my birthday wishlist..honestly ppl, whatever that comes from the heart is fine with me. SERIOUSLY! but nonetheless..for those who're still persistent.

ATIQA'S BIRTHDAY WISHLIST
let's see..what do i really want?

Ephiphone EJ-200CE Guitar
Yamaha CLP-S308PE Piano

too pircey isn't it? HAHA.i purposedly did that! even the next items on my wishlist are too steep for them to be birthday gifts! LOL

DSLR
iPod 120GB or iTouch
Samsung Anycall Haptic Pop Phone(only available in Korea for now!LOL)

how bout that? that's all im giving you guy ideas to figure out! okay, i'll go to something more realistics alright..

Dr Martins
Converse Highcut
Lomo Holga or FishEye
Fossil Wallet(i badly need to get myself this one.my wallet's screming for help!)
HVM Vouchers..heh!
Eastpak Bag
Manhattan Portage Bag?(well, not really thou.)
HelloLulu Laptop Bag
Diesel/Fossil Watch
Design Books from Basheer and PageOne
More Stationery?? Journals??

i think there's more than enough to get you an idea of what i would want. honestly, some of them are pretty steep and i wouldn't feel good if you actually did got me cos it's just..too steep. honestly, i don't look forward to the presents laaa.. like i said, its the thought that counts.(:

2009-05-19T11:17:00.002+08:00

okay, this will be the first time after a long longgg while of not updating. its kinda weird cos i don't really know what much to say. its been a while.. yeah, definitely.

well, YR 2 done ad over with like about a week or so and currently, im "interning" at the same place as Adel. coincidence? hahas. SOULMATE! LOL

actually, there's an event i so badly wanna share with the world but until everything's been finalised and stuffs..i shall wait patiently to share it with you. teeheeeeeeee...

on a side note, my birthday's coming in a weeks' time or so i think.. there's a few things that i wanna do during this period fingers-crossed, i hope i can. haha.

2009-02-01T15:37:00.007+08:00

Oh Won Bin, You'll Be Missed...

this post is specially going out to Oh Won Bin of FT Island as he left the group officially on wednesday, 28th of Jan 2009 after speculations were heard around.

although it seems a tad too shocking to come to terms with his departure from the group, life has to move on. FT Island has already found a new member that'll be taking over his place in the band. well, i will still support this band and i'll give a chance for this new member to shine too. so... all the best to FT ISLAND! stay strong yea guys!

as for Won Bin,although you're not my favourite member in the band...your departure saddens me still. after all these years going through alot together as a band and beings brothers to each other, you actually said goodbye. what saddens me most was that they found a new member immediately one day after your departure. and although everyone including me wants to know why you left, i guess the truth will only known to you and maybe to the other members. whatever it is, i wish you best of luck and still hope to see you around in the music industry. WON BIN, HWAITING!!

i believe the performance below is the last performance Won Bin did as a member of FT Island.
we'll all miss you Won Bin... goodbye.

crd:xsilh0uettex

2009-01-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

exactly a year ago.. on the very same day.. i spoke to someone on the same event.. not realizing how much i had to go through after that.. but i was strong.. strong enough to move on just fine..

however today, that wasn't the case.. that Atiqa that i know just broke down and cry.. unable to contain everything and seal it with her smile.. i showed the side of me that i didn't want to show.. the weak side of me that really had to let it go..

knowing everything hurts.. and having memories of what happened last year flooding in hurts even more..

i just wished that things wasn't this way.. then awkwardness won't fill the air..

when things get out of hand, and you feel like there's no one.. friends will always be with you..

2009-01-11T22:37:00.003+08:00

i don't really feel like blogging lately.. but im just gonna write a short update.

school's starting like.. tomorrow? well, here come familiar faces and more workloads. err.. what else..? holidays been good, i guess..

2009 uh.. well, alot of things awaits for me to achieve. hmm hopefully, i'll be able to do so.

and.. more fan-girling i guess. HAHAHA.

*fill in your own words. hahas.

sometimes, i wish i was _____. then im sure i'll love ___, shower my love like no other.
try not to make ___ cry, angry or even ____ for the silliest reason on earth. all i want ___ to know is that i ____ and _______ all the moments with ___. nothing that i wanna change, really, cos being with ___ changed me.

2008-12-17T23:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY LEE JAEJIN!! (:
well, im hoping that the date still shows its the 17th of Dec or else, it'll be happy belated birthday to you! well, noona will always be looking out for you and your hyungs! keep up the good work with those skills on the bass and keep on smiling! you're always always a treasure to your hyungs and to primadonas! Jaejin, hwaiting!! (:

2008-12-15T22:17:00.010+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY XIAH JUNSU!!(:

happy birthday, dearest Junsu oppa and also not forgetting your twin brother, Junho! hoping that you had a great day and that you spent it well with your loved ones. hope that the coming year would be a great one for you and the rest of the members. i'll always be behind rooting for you and the rest! be happy always and be sexier day by day!HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPPA!!

and..and happy belated birthday Seungri too!! sorry that it slipped my mind about your birthday! but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! you're legal now! im sure Bong's happy that you can hit the clubs with him and the rest too.yay!(:

2008-12-07T14:53:00.002+08:00

for my dear girl..

its comforting that you'd come and talk to me about your problems. whatever that you're going through right now, just keep in mind that im always here for you. just like how you want me to be a pillar of support right now. even if you don't ask of me, i'll naturally be that invisible pillar of strength for you to move forward. don't need to feel bad for asking me out late night or even talk to me in the wee mornings. if it helps to put you at ease talking to me, all the more im glad to listen. (: pardon me if at times, my advices are of no help to you or probably i said some things that are not appropriate for the situation. but i just want you to know.. that even if people change either for the better or for the worse, i won't wanna change the whole bond i share with you. I LOVE YOU, girl! your friendship and yourself is special and unique in my eyes. be strong!

2008-12-06T01:10:00.002+08:00

hello world.

life hasn't changed abit since hols started.the only thing that changed is the cash im having is getting thinner by the day. anyways, i met up with Rach on thurs and headed to Vivo to catch a show. was supposed to meet Mrs Choi but apparently, something cropped up so we had to put a miss to that. we caught Quarantine with Rach's ex-classmate and her friend. the show's alright but it made me feel a little nauseated due to the way they filmed it. and we had BnJ's ice cream after finally! hahas.. thanks, rachy!

went to work today at isetan. my FIRST day at work. well, supposedly Ying Jia was gonna work with me too but she had gastric flu. so, i worked alone till closing. gee.. was super bored standing there and all i did was just staring into the Coach mini boutique which was right opposite my counter. geee.. honestly, i don't know if i wanna continue working. the feel kinda sucks.i just don't feel like working..

this feeling sucks. and why does it lead back to where it started. sucks.

2008-11-25T18:26:00.003+08:00

its been two weeks that im sitting at home doing nothing but wasting time and electricity. i can't find a freakingg job.. im cash-strapped and there's things i soooooo soooo badly need to get done. the anxiety of waiting for results adds on to the already-so-burdened pressure and the only way to ignore all that is by playing PETS SOCIETY!! hahahas..

like how pathetic can one's life get? geee.. in my case, VERY! VERY PATHETIC!

*i wonder how're you're doing nowadays..i can't drop by to say hi, i can't text to say good night. or rather i don't wish to.. *

2008-11-15T22:47:00.007+08:00

on the special yet rare occasion that im updating..

i would like to say two things on my mind:-

• assessments are over! time to unwind!! YEAH!!

• MKMF 2008 is DA BOMB!!

what has been done cannot be undone. so, im leaving to them to decide about my results. im not saying much but im just hoping and praying for the best. i did my best. (:

MKMF 2008, awesome live performances by top-notch KPOP artistes. was definitely a show not to be missed man! thank goodness for Gomtv or else i won't be experiencing the feeling of watching it live. for those who missed it, im sure the kind ppl in youtube would be uploading it soon. watch out for Big Bang's and Hyori's special stage! it was spectacular. (: okays, i shall not say much about it. so, yeah.. MKMF 2008 was the best MKMF award show i've watched!!

oh yeah, DBSK won the best album of the year!! YAY!! DBSK hwaiting!! (:

2008-11-06T21:11:00.003+08:00

i just wanna rant.

dammit dammit dammit!! what the hell is wrong with me?!
its always the wrong kind time and again. TIME AND AGAIN!
sick and tired uh..? yeah, im sure.

2008-09-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

hello world!

im back to blog for a bit. holiday came and went but i didn't do much either. it felt like i was busy doing things the whole time, but at the end of the day i wasn't even sure what i was busy working on..

although school's started and nothing's changed, i feel much more focused this time round. i don't know why.. so don't ask me why either..i just feel that way.

Raya's next wed. im still stuck with lotsa chores to do. looks like the weekend's burnt for me. geee..

*i must be out of my mind to say that to [B] just now. to think of such things.. its okay, i won't change the way i am. i'll still be the same. im sure its just a moment of folly.. and i won't let that affect anything that im having right now.. be it our friendship, be it our hang outs. its all in the mind.. i know its just for a moment. it won't be there to stay.. sorry [B] ily (:

2008-08-23T22:38:00.003+08:00

finally! my Hongki's back with a new single! sweetss!! its very obvious that its from F.T.I because of the whole melody and stuffs but heck, they're FINALLY back! woohooo!!~~ and and!! its not just F.T.I but BB's back too with the new single!! double sweetss man!! finally, some new songs from them.. well, its about time anyways.

this place has been left abandoned for sometime aye. i was contemplating on whether or not i should just close down this space cos afterall, i don't do much update here. but well, i shall see how it goes again.

school's already in its coming 6th week which means that assessments are round the corner. workload's a bitch, as usual and there's not much leisure time as compared to year1. but heck.. its for my own good anyways. life's pretty much the same, nothing's changed.

"okays.. let's get this straight. im not your friend and you're not mine either. so, i should keep in mind that there was no friendship established in the first place and stop trying to even bother about smiling. we're both from two different world and place probably, our worlds would never cross. but thanks, for those times you tried being nice.."

2008-08-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

who cares about what we're thinking and who gives a thought about what we're trying to say.
thing is, i tried to but i got burnt instead. and who's that one person we call when we need someone to talk to but was never there. truth is, there was never such a person out there...

*where did i go wrong..i lost a friend...

2008-05-29T22:21:00.003+08:00

it’s funny how as we grow older, it’s harder to strike up a conversation with someone you want to be friends with. it’s funny how as we grow older, the less brave we become. it’s funny how when we were kid, we never for a moment had to think of what to say next. we just say whatever we feel like saying but now we have to think of the outcome of the things we said before saying it. aye. why like that?

how true can that statement be. it's so hard that you end up fumbling or just embarrassing yourself in front of that person. how i wish there's a simpler way..

it's funny how as we grow older, the greedier we can get. i guess it's true that one can never be pleased or content with the ways things are around him. don't harp on it, atiqa. let it go...

on a sad note, im still jobless and i lost some cash mum gave. crap. i feel like shit. sorry mum. i guess yesterday wasn't my day. but thanks Adelene, for cheering me up. :) apprecieated deeply. i'll think it carefully, sort it out properly and let it happen naturally. thanks alot thou. :)

shit. i miss Atiqah Ho. i miss Erdiah Samad. i miss those days writing letters to each other. i miss telling them things i needed to say. i miss those letters we exchanged. aye. i miss you guys.

i am very grateful for everything that has happened. from the day i nearly gave up on to the wonderful things and crowd that i am in. thank you. thank you Almighty. like someone once told me, everything happened for a reason and there's always a blessing in disguise. :)

saturday's coming, but im not at all excited. why aye? probably cos im not expecting much either. maybe i'll just look forward to dinner with darlinggg.. but oh crap. i feel bad not able to get anything for dad this year. damn.

2008-05-25T14:43:00.003+08:00

I Miss You Love - Silverchair

Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But Im not too sure
How Im supposed to feel
Or what Im supposed to say

But Im not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the prey
cause Im coming in
With what I wanna say but
Its gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but...

Im not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
Ive no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
Im supposed to love you back

Its just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
Im not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
Ive no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

Remember two days
Ive no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
Im supposed to love you back

2008-05-20T22:49:00.001+08:00

oh yeah.. one more thing..

don't ask me what i want for my birthday cos i don't think you can get it
for me. LOL

2008-05-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

*that's what you get when you let your heart wins..*

boredom feels the air in the house. im getting sick of staying put at home.
although its pretty peaceful with occasionally noise around but everything
else's pretty boring. BAHHH. i better find a job quick to fill up those empty
holes that NAFA has caused. and also to get out of here before the boredom
takes its toll on me very sooonnn.. even surfing the net is getting boring as the
days passes by. OH GOSHH..

speaking of a job, i hope one of the interviews i went to will call me up soon. i'd
be glad to work again.. especially if it starts immediately. :)) hehehehe $$$$$
but then again, i won't be able to have drama marathons with mum late night
anymore.. awww. i didn't know it was such fun joy watching it with her. hahas.
mum rocks man!~~

oh yeah.. im not going to click 5 anymore. cos it seems that no one's interested
in going afterall. oh wells, let's put it that im saving $68 then. i can use for sth
more worth the money. :)) so i can fly to KL instead? i wanna meet HR for
their showcase tour. may i..? its happening on my birthday some more.. lol
so.. may i? may i..? hahas.. oh, in case you're wondering what the hell is HR..
its not human resource ya.. but HARDSTYLE REPUBLIC!! check the video out
man.they're damn gddddd larrrrr.. :))

2008-05-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

assessments are almost here and i've YET to finish everything! oh wells..
what's new eh.. that line sounded so me la can.. hahas.. okay okay..

*to those peeps who ended their assessments already, WAHH~~ ENJOY LA
HORRR.. catch up with some of you peeps out there! you guys know who you
are la.. to those who are in the same boat as i am, GANBATTE ne~~ we just
have a few more days to hang on before our long deserved break arrives..

oh ya, DARLINGGG's back from m'sia.she bought the usual clique sth from
there.. and i wonder what did she get for all of us.can't wait to see.. heee.. :)
well, truth is.. i DID miss you not being ard with me la, darlingg.. it was abit
awkward not hearing from you for a while. and i did wonder how you were
doing there once or twice. so yeah.. but oh wells, hols would be the same too!
so, i shouldn't feel that way cos we're not going to meet each other often during
hols too.. hahas~~LOL

i should be back to doing my work.. not blogging! and oh ya! HUMPFREY..
now, im updating, am i?! hahaha..

oh ya.. * i wanna go for Click Five concert.
* i wanna buy sth nice for my birthday. any ideas what should i get?

2008-05-06T00:52:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REPLYING!!

*thank you for giving me that motivation~~

2008-04-15T23:38:00.002+08:00

it takes moree...

"Thank god for Atiqa darling or else i think i'm doomed tml. She's there whenever i needed someone and she helps me out without even complaining or asking for anything in return. I appreciate you my darling! We'll sing to Peterpan's songs together okay? (: You're deeply loved by me (: "
-taken off from Rachael's blog

ain't that sweet? hahas.. someone appreciates my kindness! okayss, i know most of my friends do but haha.. happen so, im always there when this girl, RACHAEL needs someone to talk to..lol. I WILL STILL BE HERE FOR YOU KAYS~~ haha.. its been a while since i felt this kinda sincerity from friends that i have around me.. eversince im in NAFA, i enjoy the company of ALL my friends. be it the old class, 1Q or my current class, 1S.. i have to admit i hang out more often with my current bunch of loveliess but i still love my MOMOS.. haha. lovessss..

memories.. i had my fair share of joy back in secondary school but i had loads of bad memories too. i shan't say anything about it anymore.. cos its all in the past. what's impt is that i grew out of it and learnt something useful to be a wiser person.. to all those peeps who brought me down once, i thank you for doing so. if it weren't for you guys, i won't be who i am. thank you.

well, im loving NAFA.. with the company i have and stuffs.. but workload is piling can.. im having assessments in 2-3 weeks' time and yet i feel rather relaxed?! WTH.. oh wells, i so in need of a job soon.. there's a lot to buy here and there.. shit! i wish i was rich.. but oh wells.. and yes DARLINGG.. we'll buy the CRUMPLER bags soon.. hahahaha..

* i don't need a lover i just need someone who's willing to stick with me no matter what..
can i say that i kinda like you..?

2008-04-06T19:35:00.001+08:00

Time Is Running Out-MUSE

I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

2008-03-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

first and foremost, before i forget.. let's wish someone
a happy birthday..

~HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUMPHREY~~
hope you had a blast on this special day of yours.
all the best for everything you do and believe in.
be wiser but still maintain that youthfulness in you!
take care babes~~

okays, i should be more focused this time. not that i was
playing last term..but i think i should buck up at certain
areas. anw, im still sick. but at least physically better.i
felt real bad for missing class yesterday but somehow i
was just too weak to even get up from the bed. gee~~
i guessed that everything took up most of my energy i
had in me. but oh wells, at least i managed to start on my
works that i have.. and NOT think of THINGS that are
not supposed to be. i will put aside THAT thinking of mine
that shouldn't even be thought of in the first place.. i'll be
more FOCUSED, i PROMISE.. no more nonsense please..

watching videos of Kame and Jin just makes me so happy.
it feels good to watch how cute and adorable they are! they
are so funny la can~~ hahahas. thank goodness i have my
darl, JUN to update me on all the new videos that are must
watch!! heheehe.. Jun, arigatou!! lovess~~~

2008-03-15T22:30:00.005+08:00

i'll be happy. i'll be brave. i'll stay strong. no matter what it takes.
i won't falter. not again. i won't remain just the same. i won't deny
it'll be that way.but i'll make sure it will change. i had enough of this
foolish game. so i decided to be on my way. try not to stop and wave.
cos i don't think i can react the same. we're just friends in the name.
so why not pretend that it didn't take place. we're better off in our
own ways. so let's start back from where we came. nothing lose
nothing gain. but maybe just a little pain. i'll get over that little pain.
and i'll erase it all away. i won't choose to hate you in any ways. cos
somehow i hope the friendship will still prevail..

i've been procrastinating too much as whether or not i should be blogging.
i guess i should just be blogging abit. the week is coming to and end. and i
should be start preparing myself to be back on study mode. let's get more
serious this time round. no more slacker attitude, atiqa!

hadn't done much during the short break. i managed to meet up with my
DARLING and SWEEETTS, both on the same day. had loads of fun being
able to meet up with them on thursday. yeaps, darling jun and me shares
the same passion for JOHNNYS so all our topic was on them. and AKAME :)
poor her wanted to buy MYOJO that has Kame on its cover but it was sold
out at Kino. and we tried our luck heading to Mise* clusive at cine but it was
closed. darnnn!! we shall try again the next time, yea? im soo looking
forward to meeting her again!! hmmm.. jun darling, if you're reading this..
next time let's go and buy mags together ne? :) :)

of cos, i met up with sweetss gwen right after that. supposedly we met
earlier but due to the downpour we met up slightly later. we had a great
time having a heart-to-heart talk on certain issues on our lifes. and
although it was mostly just chilling out at coffee bean, it meant alot.
i mean, we're not close to begin with actually,and we're not from the
same school either.. but there's is just a connection that bonds us
together. sweetts, thanks for that! can't wait for the day we'll be able
to meet up again. :) :)

last but NOT least, i met up with my dear rachael. accompanied her to
collect her specs and we chilled at starbucks then. took some pics using
her cam and she helped me out . although it was in vain, thanks babe!
i appreciated that! :)

oh yeah.. thanks darling jun for reading my blog!! :) :) :)

behind a smile lies a story. behind those laughters lies tears of pain.

사랑은 떠나고, 얻고 가지고 가 돌려보낸다. 너는 이렇게 생각하는가?

2008-03-11T18:10:00.002+08:00

On Such A WET WET Weather..

its such a wet day. the rain's pouring outside. and there's nth
to do. im feeling BORRREEEEDDDDDD..

oh ya, SOMEONE wants me to update my blog so badly so that
he can read it.right, HUMPHREY?? lolss..

see, there's nth much to say. so, that's why i don't update. and i
bet no one bothers reading my blog so ya.. hahahas.

*how do i get rid of the feeling i have inside. i wish i could let it all
out. but to who.. can i tell it to you?.. you.. who won't even bother.
the way i see, it won't last..but the way i feel, its growing inside. so
its only you who can make me decide.. what's your decision, honey..

yay! im meeting up with some of my sweets and honeeyyyyy..

2008-02-11T22:34:00.001+08:00

yes, i know! my blog is DEAD..!! i don't bother
updating la.. cos nth much happening right now.
i'll update when there's sth nice to rant abt..

2008-01-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

its not like i wished to blog or sth.. i don't even have much stuffs to
rant about.. im just trying to pass time so that my download will be
done by tonight!.. i've waited like super long for this stupid freaking
software to be done la.. so pls pls pls.. can it be anywhere near
faster..? its killing me la can.. URGHHH!!!

let's just rant about anything random.. so, hmmm.. oh yea, my new
peeps are rather nice and easy-going ppl.. so, i donwn feel so left
out not being in my old 1Q. but of course FACT is, i miss 1Q badly la..
so ya..

Valentine's day is coming.. and of course, it will be the same just like
the previous years.. nth exciting, surprising or whatsoever to look
out for. im not really affected by it la.. so it isn't so bad impact on
myself.. who says V day is only for couples? we can also show our
love and affection towards anyone who we care like our family
and friends.. so yeaps, its okay for me. im cool with it.. really.

2008-01-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

More More and More..

school's started and the work's beginning to pile in SLOWLY..
i repeat, SLOWLY.. die la die.. there' no more social to enjoy..

2008-01-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

My Beautiful Stranger...

you caught my attention with your iPod touch.was standing right
in front of you inside the crowded train. didn't took notice of you
much.. but then, when we stood side by side. we kept bumping into
each other.. as if it was on purpose. but i wonder.. beautiful stranger.
who are youuuuuu..?

2008-01-06T16:54:00.000+08:00

As I Mature..

*okay, so i found this in my email and decided to post it.
just for the sake sharinggg.. *

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.All you
can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people are
just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only
takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen
minutes.After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others-they
are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do unless we are
celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship
can be, the passion fades, and there had better bea lot of money
to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working
in your house, one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken
from you and all the less important ones just never go away.

yeaps, that's the crap i learned from the email. hahas. enjoyy..

2008-01-01T18:12:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!

the start of a fresh new year. the start of a new resolution.
i don't ask for much. i don't wish to be greedy.
all i want is to be a better person, inside out.

2007-12-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

Wayy Back Into Timeee..

2007-12-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

Don't Look Back In Anger..

those silly, ridiculous things you do when you're not
matured at all. i looked back and reflected but i can't
help but to LAUGH at how RIDICULOUS i was. silly.

2007-11-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

Farewell Fellow Comrades, May You Rest In Peace..

gone may you all be.. away from this world at least..
but never in our hearts.. for you all will always be missed..

you all are team mates who are "blood-brothers".. you
all sticked together even till the end..bidding farewell
to this world together..just like true brothers do..

its a great loss for us to lose such fine young lads..when
we know that definitely, they could have made us even
more proud of them in the future.. but then again..
all's in vain..you all are in a another world.. where
eternal happiness can be found..

as a singaporean, im proud for what you all have done..
special thanks for making us really proud of all of you..
we're really proud of all those things you've done to
make us proud of you..

its been a teary-eyed week for me.. and im sure for many
of us out there too.. now that you all are finally sent off
to a better place.. we shall all pray that you all be happy
in that special place that God decided to invite you over..

each one of you touched many lives in alot of ways.. be it
your family, your friends.. and even now, strangers like me.
im sure all of you will be remembered in alot of different
ways too.. your fond memories etched eternally in our hearts,
our minds..

its really hard to bid you all farewell.. for a stranger like myself.
i cried hard each time i read the news..i watch the videos.. its
really hard, tough indeed for us to bid farewell to you fine lads.
i believed its even harder for your family and friends.. but this
life journey of yours has ended.. and we all have to bid you a
final goodbye..

as for now, i shall try not to shed a tear anymore..
whenever im recalling about you all..
instead, i'll look up into the sky..
and smile at it as im sure you all will look down..
to return back that smile i gave..

*Dearest Jeremy, Reuben, Boon San, Stephen and Wei Cheng..
Rest In Peace.. Have a wonderful life journey in your new life.

you'll be missed deeply.. and remembered dearly in our hearts.
ALWAYS..

2007-11-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

"Your Gaurdian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2007-11-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

Random Shit..

* TEEBUCTOO. random tees made for random peeps.
the tees are so comfortable, you even sleep with them on!

*assessments are OVER. so i DESPERATELY in need of
a job.so pls.. any of you have job vacancies.INFORM me.

*i wanna shop yet i ain't got cash. damnn..

*lastly, i miss him so badly yet i can't express it. shitto!

2007-11-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

i don't do what i preach..
i don't hold on to my words..
and i don't stop myself from moving forward..

but im ONLY human..
and that's my SAVING grace..

2007-11-10T16:39:00.000+08:00

BIG BANG.. LIES

recently got addicted to this song. BIG BANG.. the
upcoming super idol, i guess. hahas.. check it out.

Online Videos by Veoh.com

2007-11-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

Is It REALLY Goodbye?

so..im in school blogging while waiting for printmaking class to start.
well, today's actually the last day of semester 1 and im kinda feel
sad.. is this really the end of the wonderful class 1Q?! oh mann..

like how i've expressed my feelings in the last post..i REALLY REALLY
don't want to split class!! im not prepared to mix around and get to
know ppl all over AGAIN!!

enough ranting about that though.. is this gonna be the last time im
seeing him?! waitt.. i haven't even seen him the whole day today la.
will i even see him today?! i don't know.. guess even if i don't see him
today, i will bump into him somehow in school again. but it'll be lesser
OF COURSE!! hahas..

*but i don't know why, this heart yearns to see him BADLY. howwww...

2007-11-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

Im Sure Gonna Miss You..

left with ONE LAST day to be with all my friends in 1Q.
im sure gonna miss them BIGG TIME la..

seriously.. time flies fast when you're enjoying it.i
barely feel that 14 weeks of sch has past. and next
thing i know, we're SPLITTING class next sem. URGHH!

a year ago, i was anxiously waiting for the BIG Os to
be OVER. and now, im anxiously waiting for the sem.
assessments to be over too. butt.. over means no more
1Q!! darn..

well, when i first came to NAFA, i was worried that i
won't like my class etc.. but i guess i was wrong. if
i hadn't been in 1Q, i wouldn't have not ppl.. who are
beginning to leave footprints in my life.

if it hadn't been for 1Q.. i wouldn't have known..
SHIQIN.. or E.N SHI-QIN (pronounce in the chinese style)
who's fun and bubbly with her fierce persona. then, i
won't know the LOUD MISCHA (in a good way) who's always
cheering and perking us up in class. of cos, SMELLY MELLY
who's a cool chic with lots of secrets for me to keep. heh..
also, the SUPER OUTGOING CJ who's always cool with all
plans we make. and SONIKA.. our motherly yet funny
class rep.

of cos, there's more to mention.. like the MOON GANG, the
CHARLIE's ANGELS, the SERIOUS and SLACKER group
etc.. oh ya, and our ex classmate, the ROCK STAR.. lol.
without them, i bet 1q that i know of now, will not be the
same. with all these ppl in 1Q.. im proud to say that our
class is UNIQUE. definitely, im gonna miss you guys!
so ya.. ALL THE BEST FOT ASSESSMENTS!! =)

and ya.. im gonna miss the lecturers too! ~~~

2007-11-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

Woke Up On The Wrong Side of The Bed..

today.. practically today was just NOT my day.everything so
messed up, everything went so wrong. i feel like i haven't done
my part. i feel like a total pathetic loser. i hate this feeling. the
feeling when everything's all wrong. all so WRONG!! URGHHH!!

gee, sharing the same lift with you and her wasn't an easy feat
for me. i had to pretend nothing or rather no feelings were
involved when i looked at the two of you. deep down, you totally
crushed me. butt.. i don't blame you.. you're not aware of what's
going on..

sometimes, what we want might not be what we get.but this is
life.. it works that way..

* and i decided to upload some videos for the sake of cheering up!
hahas.. GAMBATTEE, ATIQA!! =)

2007-10-03T13:56:00.000+08:00

Am I Really Missing You?

the more i try to get closer, the further you drift away. the harder i
try to please you, the more annoyed you became. probably it should
have just stayed that way. no more, no less.

as the days went by, its tougher to shake you off my mind. i hope
you're not here to stay. i hope its just one of those games. i'll forget
about you when the time comes. cos i know you're waiting for someone.

probably we'll be happy if we're friends.probably we understand
each other when we're just friends. you won't drift away, i won't
run away. so why don't we just be that way..

crapping away since i've got nothing to do. im just writing what's on
my mind. there's no such person who's involved in my love life.

2007-09-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hey Blog, Are You Officially DEAD? lols :)

honestly, i've been pretty much slacking alot at home.don't really have the mood to do much stuffs. except probably go online and rotttt. wait.. what have i been doing online either? i didn't reply any CR msges, rarely checked my maill..oh wells, i think i was probably stoning la..just taking a WONDERFUL break from the assessments. hah.

speaking of which, THANK GOODNESS, i scrape through all of the assessments. none needs to be re-submitted. YAY! like you can't imagine how freaking paranoid i was when i waited for the results la..like super scary can?!haha..buttt..im starting school this Monday *bummer* so i cn foresee more assignments coming my way. ahhh.. DIE la like that. im so not in the mood to be back. URGH!!

btw, I've been tagged by ANAREZ!! :)

Here are the rules:

1. Each blogger must post the rules first.

2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

3. Blogger that are tagged need to write on their blog about their eight things and post the rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged and to read your blog.

Eight random facts/habits about me:

- My FIRST JAP infactuation is JUN!! :)

- I am LOVED by MY DEARS, SAYANGS,DARLINGS etc..

- I hope to study in JAPAN :)

- Some ppl may think im a snob, but actually, im VERY FRIENDLY

- Wants a laptop, can?! hah.

- a pretty conservative person

- Likes all CUTE AND HOTT AND HANDSOME BOYS.. :)

- Likes to write. be it songs, poems etc.. heh.

guess im very much being real free, so i've decided to post this. lols. okay then, stop crapping and do more work! yeah..

2007-09-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

Random.. Really Random..

seriously, i don't really know what to blog abt today.
i just feel like writing, but im not sure of what..*eeps*
i know im supposed to be like busy with my projects
and assessments here and there.but i think for today,
i'll give myself a break.. JUST FOR TODAY LA CAN?

assessments are big time killers, like SERIOUSLY. i hope
to scrape through man.i don't wanna be doing re-assessments
or whatsoever man.hell no!!!but well, i think at my rate, there's
hope for me to survive another term in NAFA.sure hope so.

today, i went to ask YJ regarding his Jap classes.hmmm..
turns out the school is near NAFA.cool~~ and the best thing
is that its affordable la can? hahas..but the intake is only at
the end of this year as the class is starting next year Jan. im
excited man.. like FINALLY, i can take up the course. lol..

well, i realised that many of my classmates wanna go to Japan
too.hmmm.. i wonder of what reason.but as for me, my reason
is the same as YJ; i wanna study there ONE DAY. hopefully.

oh yes, and i wanna listen to more Jap songs can? Anarez, send
me some songs la can? especially ARASHI's songss!!! hahahas..
or whatever that are nice la..hehehe.

oh ya oh ya!! and i wanna buy NEWS LIVE DVD concert man!
but i ain't got the cash mann.. shuckss..*sigh sigh* hmmm..
someone in my class resembles a little bit like Doumiyouji.
hahahas.. but not THAT much la can? hahaha..

okay, enough of crapping and start doing something. and i
just realised that my blog is pretty dead too. hahahs. cool~~

2007-09-05T15:46:00.000+08:00

Very Random Pictures..

2007-08-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

A Blast From the Past..

seriously, i don't even know what's happening these days.
i keep bumping into ppl from my past.not like those who
tainted my past or sth.. but they just happened to walk
into my life, somehow, someway. its pretty scary though..
like meeting up your primary school friends after so longg.
its a nice thing yet weird.. don't ask me why thou.

urghh!! as the days passes by, NAFA is getting more and more
complicated.assessments are around the corner. and im not sure
if i could scrape through this one YET. its a scary thought.
and im trying my best not to read into it too much,seriously.

well, i found this somewhere in my computer.so, i decided to
upload it. rightttt..

No emotions to see on your face
Can't feel the warmth of your embrace
Nothing registered in my eyes,
Nothing but text as cold as ice.

But, wait, can't you feel?
On the net is something real
Another world where there is love,
life, worries, war, and peace of a dove.

I see a faceless friend
whom I can always depend
With just a click of a button
(making sure the computer is on!)

But when I chat with you,
it makes my day bright
It gives color to my monochrome life
Alas! red, blue and lilac stripes.

Someday I'll see your face again
Truely more than a gaze
Friendship will flourish
hoping the "magic" will not vanish

gotta get back with my figure drawing man! urghh!!!

2007-07-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

Back To Reality..

i know i've been gone for sometime..ain't bothered with this free space i have here. but guess what?! i've decided to make do with the space given to me yet AGAIN..
im gonna make use of this space to write probably things you never knew i could do. i hope to use this space as much as i can.. penning my thoughts, my fear and whatever things.. oh wells, to cut the crap..
I'VE DECIDED TO BLOG AGAIN! hahas~~

let's see..
well, im back to school..like FINALLY. after a LONGGGG break from the Os. im a student of NAFA now, am proud of it. let's just hope i'll do well there aite. no more slacker attitude this time! hahas..but okay, i regret just a tiny bit.. i should have taken art lessons man!! like DAMN!! practically, i have to draw almost everyday!! well, sorta..

okays..that's all that has happened so far. will try to update more in time. toodles!

2007-03-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

Don't Speak
I know just what you're saying
So please explaining
Don't tell me cos it hurts

Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cos it hurts..

2007-02-08T18:48:00.000+08:00

Kenang Terindah..

sorry if im being kinda racist here. but this is dedicated especially to my
ONE and ONLY girlfriend, u know who u are..

aku yang tidak pandai menghargai. aku yang tidak pandai mengambil
hati. maafkan diriku jika engkau pernah dilukai. maafkan diriku ini
kerna tidak mengerti. sebuah persahabatan yang ikhlas dan suci.
namun ia tidak pernah dibelai. semua ini kau simpan di dalam hati.
tanpa ku sedari, dirimu telah mula menjauhkan diri. cita-cita yang
kita bina bersama tidak pernah ku lupai. menara gading tetap akan
kita kecapi. tahun yang baru sudah pun tiba, namun dirimu tidak
pernah ku lupa. namamu telah sebati dalam jiwa. tersepat dalam
dada.ingin ku mulakan lembaran baru dengan dirimu. namun ku
tahu kau tidak mungkin mahu. kerna luka lama belum sembuh lagi.
tetapi, bagi diri ini hanya kau lah yang masih ku tunggu.
dan semua kenangan, pahit dan manis yang telah kita
lalui bersama akan ku jadikan kenangan yang terindah bagiku..

bila yang tertulis untukku..adalah yang terbaik untukmu..
kan ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku..
namun takkan mudah bagiku..meninggalkan jejak hidupku..
yang telah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan yang terindah..

2007-01-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

Paper

Reflections on the water
I share with u on my blank paper
Call out ur name as if I don't know u
Or I had u replaced

Were u real and were u here?
What is this feeling that I fear?
Open up and make things clear
Did u love me?

Screaming aloud won't help but it makes me feel better
Nothing compares to this
Why are we still here shouldn't we have moved
And still we stay
I cannot be with u
Let me go..

The scars upon ur head
Pierce through my soul yet I can't love u
The way that u love me
Why can't u see that like this
We won't last

Trust me we will be just fine
Let go of this feelingu feign inside
I know in just a matter of time
We'll be just fine..

*letting go is hard but I'll find a way somehow..

2007-01-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

2006-11-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

What I Wanted To Say..

sheesh.. its officially over. im done with my O levels man!! hahas..
but, something's not right.. i don't feel right at all. maelstrom of feelings
going through currently. its like im glad im out of school yet my heart's kinda
heavy to leave it all behind..gee.

well, i still remember back when we're in sec 1, everyone wanted to fit in..
coming from different schools and backgrounds, we didn't know much of
each other and we're so far from who we've all become now. sheesh.. it
makes me laugh sometimes reminising the past..lol.

to cut it short, i just wanted to tell everyone out there how much each and
everyone of u mean to me. definitely, i've learnt alot during my 4 years in
Bowen and out there. thanks everyone!

`ERDIAH SAMAD
ur friendship means the WHOLE WORLD to me! u've taught me all that i
needed to know to be a best friend. sometimes, u just gotta sacrifice for
those that u really cared for. i get it now. thanks babe! our friendship that
went through so much is the factor that im still hanging on to myself today.
those memories that we share; the laughter and the tears.. those can't be
replaced by others. only WE share this moments together. thanks!
time and again, i wanna APOLOGISE so badly for the whole past. i wished i
could turn back the time, but i can't. so like i said, only time can heal the
wound.. maybe in the years to come, we'll start again anew k babe?
<3>

`CHANG SHENG
u.. we've sat through 4 years in the SAME class! never once, i regretted sitting
beside u (don't know if u ever did..heh). u're funny, witty, smart and of cos HOT.
lol..i will never EVER forget the sec 2 moments; singing together at the back of the
class, sneakily listening to the radio etc. those moments will always have a special
place in my heart. besides, i gotta THANK YOU. for ur HONESTY, SINCERITY
and straightforwardness. though, i've hurt u in a way or 2.. u were daring enuff
to tell me the truth though u're worried i may get hurt. honestly speaking i'll get
even more hurt if u kept it to urself. so, yeah..THANKS! also, u're one of those
SPECIAL people in my heart. cos even at a point u choose the path against me..
u still want to regard me as ur friend and assuring me that u'll be there for me.
always. so, THANK U SO MUCH..
<3>

`KESLYN
another classmate who's been alot with me for the past 4 years. i gotta admit,
u may be eccentric (joking la..hee) but u're actually a nice person overall. just
know how to behave appropriately at the correct time ok? hee. u too, was there
for me and i gotta admit, honestly, i know sometimes, im not there when u need
someone. SORRY babe! i'll try to be more understanding ok? hee.. we too shared
a fair moments of joys and sorrows. if ever my jokes or comments were harsh, im
SORRY ok? didn't mean to say all those.. hee. thanks for all that u've done! really.
u helped me alot u know..i bet u don't think i appreciate all that, but i do. i really do.
i know u're very emotional person.. so, yeah.. don't easily get hurt ok? another thing..
follow what ur heart really wants ok? do what u think its right.. always my homie!!
<3>

`KALAI
2 years of friendship means ALOT to me.. classmates since sec 3 but i felt like i've
known u for very long. u too taught me to STAY STRONG. told me not to care abt
other's criticism and live the way i really am. in u, i found another companion to
confide in; pour out my feeling and ideas to. u never fail to intro me new songs and
stuffs.. always checking out the HOT STUFFS.. hahas. i enjoyed hanging out with u,
going shopping with u and stuffs.. i really appreciate ur company so much, also i
wanna THANK YOU for all those motivations, advices that u gave. keep on KRUNKIN'
aite.. i hope that our friendship will stay this way even after all this. take care luv'
<3>

`DHEA
sheesh..bestie! i nearly forgot all about u.. hee. we've been best friends for 5 years
now uh.. unbelievable! lols.. pri 6 meant alot to me, i think to u too la.. we had so
much FUN together, always scouting for new places to hang out. hahas. ur friendship
too means a WHOLE WORLD to me.. its hard to get someone like u; having so much
to share in common. hahas. in u, i found another me.. but sadly, we had to be
seperated into different schools.. but now, we can start our old antics again. lols.
must meet up ok bestie?.. always remember that no matter how less i talk or
meet up or even message u, im always ur bestie. always!
<3>

`JUSTIN LUKE
unexpectedly, we too ended up as best friends! pri 6 till now.. wow. i've always
thought we can never keep our friendship this long, but what do ya know? we did.
hee..knowing we always quarrel over trivial matters last time.. hee.u always like
to fool around, annoying me sometimes. but i appreciate ur friendship alot yeah..
never did once i regret being ur friend. but again, u're SOO busy with ur girlfriend
and other stuffs, we rarely get to meet up.. so pls.. spare some time and meet up
k bro?.. miss your jokes la. LAME jokes. hahaahs.. joking. hee.
<3>

`KELLY
my latenight chatter!! hahas.. its cool how we've got really close. through chatting on
MSN.. hahas. 2 years ago, right?.. hahas. anyway, i gotta learn alot of things from
u too.. ur advices, ur perspective on life, love and stuffs.. it opens up my eyes to
see things from different angle. hahas.. i really enjoy this friendship alot.. i hope that
we'll continue it even when we're older.. hahas. ur friendship means A GREAT DEAL
in my life too ok?.. so yeah.. keep in touch always. ALWAYS! heee..
<3>

`MY HOMIES
well, u guys knwo who u are.. although i may not know u guys that well, but i want
to THANK u all for cheering me up this year especially when i really felt the impact
of losing someone so important in my life.. thanks..hope that we'll always keep in
touch no matter how busy we are. love ya guys!!
<3>

to those whose names not mentioned.. doesn't mean i don't care and don't aprreciate ya.. i do..i REALLY do. cos everyone is unique in their own special way..so.. yeah.

2006-10-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO MOE ZAQIR!!!

hoping that he'll be a better and wiser self. and that he'll be strong to face the obstacles ahead of him.. smiles..

2006-09-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

2006-09-12T18:19:00.000+08:00

My Heart

disini kau dan aku
terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih sayang
bahagia kudenganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

if we love somebody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all
i wouldn’t risk my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

2006-09-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

No Promises..

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

2006-09-06T14:04:00.000+08:00

Bila Hati Berbisik..

*warning: text in malay*

baru ku mengerti mengapa dirimu sangat susah dilupakan. ada benarnya jika ku katakan kesilapan itu juga datang dari dirimu. kerna kau insan terlalu baik dan mudah membuat seseorang itu jatuh cinta denganmu. seandainy kau letakkan diriku di tempatnya, aku akan merasakan bagaimana dia rasakan..kemesraanmu itu mudah memikat hatinya; seringkali ku melihat dirinya tersenyum ketika bersamamu. tetapi, jika kau tahu yang tidak semudah itu akan kau jatuh cinta dengan dirinya.. janganlah kau memberikan harapan kepadanya. kerana akhirnya, dirinya juga yang akan merana. kadang-kala, ku terfikir.. jika caramu itu sama terhadap semua teman-teman perempuan mu itu, tidakkah itu akan memberikan tanggapan yang salah? kau akan manarik lagi ramai untuk jatuh cinta kepadamu. tapi, ku tahu.. hatimu telah pun dimiliki. tidak mungkin kau akan memilih dirinya kerna kau telah lama menunggu cinta dari insan lain. namun, sebagai seorang teman.. kepada dirimu, ku berharap agar janganlah kau terus memberikan harapan kerana ku tidak ingin melihat dirinya dikecewakan.

2006-08-13T00:43:00.000+08:00

WELCOME TO THE CLUB!!!

been goin out the past few days.. made loads of new frens.
its like wonderful la.. gotta to thank the somebody for bringing
me to tat BBQ @ Caribean on National Day.
was a great BBQ with great ppl! yeah!

one of my latest sister, JESLYN rocks la! she's like totally my
the "other-half" la. damn! she's damn cool lor..i mean she totally
rock.. just imagine, we could click the in a day?? wat do u call tat man!!
AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER AGAIN!! YAY!!

so, cos of the bonding i've made.. i decided to join the club. i mean..
tat's one way i could meet Jes rite? lol.. n maybe cos i've given my
word to tat somebody. oh wells..

anyway.. i came across something tat seems rather true la!

May babies..

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

oh yea.. i was reading about someone else's qualities. n i really think its true!
its like so rite on the dot la.. sheesh.

2006-08-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

The Diary Of Me..

have u ever felt tat u cared n yet u don't want to?? the sympathy tat u felt
for a person.. n yet u choose to ignore?? no matter how strong the sympathy
could be.. and have u ever experienced all these?? have u?

so is it worth the effort doin all tat? i don't know.. u decide.
btw, im only HUMAN.. and tat's my saving grace..

something's getting in the way..
something's just about to break..
i will try to find my place..
in the diary of jane..

2006-08-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

2006-07-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

Life Is Wonderful.. lalalala~~~

so, I WON THE BET!!!! yay!! cool.. i managed to prove u people
WRONG!! ahahahaha~~~ I WON!! I WON!! told ya rite.. tat i've
always been rite all this while. u guys choose not to believe it. but
TOO BAD!! I WON!!

okayy, nuff said abt the it. im just GLAD i WON!!

2006-07-23T19:06:00.000+08:00

If You Could Only See..

regarding the NCC P.O.P pictas.. i've uploaded it but have yet to edit
them. so, pls wait if u want the pics yaa..

i must say.. tat i won't be bloggin as often as i hope to. its really time
for me to be bucking up on my studies.. gotta prove my parents tat i
can be like wat they are hopin me to be.

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still, u people keep doin the same thing.. especially U! yea U!! goshh,
wat's ur problem with us?? or rather who r u against?? i mean.. wat's with
the whole idea of throwing ice cubes at us.. if u're truly not happy with us,
tell it straight to the face. its juz irritating ok?! nuff said already.. seriously,
i ain't wanna pick a fight with u.. we're classmates n so be it tat way. i juz dun
understand why time n again we ended up as the victims of ur pranks? i
dunno la.. dun wanna think so much abt it..

2006-07-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

Back Off Will Ya..

its just a pity tat they don't wanna see our faces there.. we could give
them loads of encouragement u noe. YEAH RITE!!
after the way they treated my friend?? don't think so..

i just don't get it.. its not as if we were so keen on goin for it. was merely
askin.. and wat's wrong with tat?? sheesh.. i didn't know by asking nicely, u
get such a treatment. i am proud tat my very own friends are actually playin
on the centrestage.. but, now i may have to think otherwise. dude, wat can
possibly happen if we were to go to see u guys perform? its not as if we'll do
any harm.. nevermind bout tat.

but wat pisses me off is not tat.. its the treatment they gave to my friend.
why u guys gotta go to such extent to upset her?? she was just trying to get some
info.. she was askin on OUR behalf.. nothin more. PLEASE ppl.. know ur
limits can? i think she tolerated so much of the nonsense u guys gave her. its high
time u ppl give her a BREAK!! i just hate to see her keep on cryin time and again cos
of ur nonsense.. n u there, her BELOVED.. u're enjoying the drama aren't u??
twit!! can't u ask ur friends to stop it?? she's not a toy for u ppl to play with OK?!

watever it is, im proud of HER.. really AM.. she's been through alot, having faced
discrimination and humiliation from ppl who has something against her.. but she
still stay strong. tat's ma lady.. tat's ma homie.

2006-07-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

Move Along..

well, honestly.. i still haven't got over the fact tat GERMANY lost.
but oh wells.. u win some, u lose some.. in fact, tat's the way the
game works. but am praying REAL hard AGAIN tat they will
emerge 3rd in tmr's game. *finger's crossed mann!!*

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*disclaimer: i don't mean to criticise anyone anyhow. so, dun take to the heart*

anw, one of the homies is caught up in some kinda misunderstanding..
frankly speaking.. if i were her, i'd tell the truth. though it will somehow
hurt the other party, but hey.. its better then being bugged all the time.
furthermore, it'll resolve once n for all.. well, if the other party gets hurt,
it should be juz for the time being..

oh wells, i don't mean to hurt anyone while saying tis.. but im juz speaking
my mind.. anw, blog is meant for everyone's feast. so, if u, the reader, feel
offended.. u gotta accept the fact.maybe, during tat moment.. the blogger may have vent his/her anger on the blog..unknowingly, they may have offended u
without realising tat u can view it..hey, im sure tat its juz at a spur of
a moment they got angry..after tat, its all over..oh wells,
but different people have different perspective.. watever it is, i respect tat.
i hope people out there respect me too..

so, once again.. forgive and forget is the best thing to do. so yea.. reality
bites. but learn to accept it.

~it takes a thought to make a word..

2006-07-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

BREAKING FREE..

today was the re-run of HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL on disney channel..
it was so nice to catch it all over again.. watching Troy and Gabriella
faling in love on the first meeting and so on.. awww.. ZAC EFRON was
HOTT!! ARGHH!! VANESSA ANNE was GORGEOUS!! ok, so i've watched
twice .. but who cares?? i love the storyline and i don't mind catchin it
a thousand times again..

watching the show again makes me feel in high spirits cos the show makes
me believe tat watever dreams we have, its not impossible to achieve.. it
looked so easy for them to continue their passion for singing even though
at first, they were held back by frens n families. i guess, the moral is if u
really wanna do something, u gotta pursue it no matter wat.. even if u've
got obstacles to break tru.. the songs on the soundtrack are wonderful.. my
particular favourite has gotta be BREAKING FREE.. the lyrics to it is fantastic.

like the first verse of the song.. we're soaring, flyin'.. there's not a star in
heaven.. tat we can't reach..

the lyrics makes u feel so motivated to really work hard and not give up ur
dreams.. im inspired by tat song.. and i guess the two wonderful ppl who
sang it make it even better! haha!

so.. i joined the contest to win premuims of HSM.. i really am trying, hoping,
and praying tat i'll get sth.. i really hope my efforts of clicking those buttons
countless of times pay off.. plss... plsss.. plss..oh God.. plssssssss...

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so, im frens with her.. though i don't know why i choose to.. when i talked to her, i find
her nice.. but somehow, this heart just feels as if she's not.. is it cus she's with him? or is
it cus im not as nice as her..?how can it be so.. i thought i learn to let it go.. but it seems
not.. but weird thing is, after i was prepared to leave him alone.. he sudenly appeared
in my life again.. this time, being more friendly den ever.. im not gonna fall into it again..
am i..?? oh plss .. i don't wanna..mealstrom of feelings engulfed me currently.. i don't
know wat's the rite thing to do.. but i definitely know.. i ain't gonna disturb u.. so, find me
if u need me.. not the other way round.. got tat dude??

just like a fairytale, u came and u gave the best moments life has to offer..

2006-06-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

Biarlah Rahsia..

finally, i saw him online today. yippe!! but as always, he's busy.. bleah..
so, i went out today.. went to play pool with my fellow mates but
after tat, things turned out a little ugly. i don't know tat things will
get so messed up like tat. okayy, partially, i WAS at fault.. but if some
pple(u-know-who-u-are), will just tell me simply wat i wanted to know..
then, all this won't happen..

okayy.. enuff of the bad moments already. so, im glad he's back online.. and
i hope he will come online more often.. well, maybe i've already starting to
like him or maybe it can be just a simple crush.. but watever it is, it's
definitely gonna stay for a while..

as for now.. im just gonna keep it a secret..

2006-05-31T21:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

whoa.. im FINALLY 16 babe!! time to hit the clubs.. yeah rite..
anyway.. today wasn't really TAT great of a day. more likely, i had to go
back to school for my freaking english oral.. like wat the hell?! and of cos,
as usual, oral was like screwed up.. a lil, i guess.
i don't know.. who gives a damn anyway.

oh yeahh.. a MILLION THANKS to those who wished me time and again..
THANKS GUYS!! u really made my day. i mean, i didn't expect lots of
people to remember my birthday, especially when every year it
falls on a holiday.. lol. people like Suba, THANKS for ur wonderful, lovely
self-made card.. Namira, for ur scary-yet-cool birthday wish.. yeahh, my
classmates, the whole bunch of WONDERFUL people who wished me.. THANKS!!
those who wrote my testis on friendster.. THANKS.. really. i mean, it's the
thought that counts rite?and im really am truly appreciative of all that.

of cos, not forgetting, MA DEAR HOMIES!! u guys totally rawk babes..
Kalai, Pravina, Yinzhen, Keslyn and Hidayah.. MUCHOS GAZZILIONS to u babes.
thank you for spending ur time off from ur s0-not-BUSY schedule with me.
was fun hanging out at ma cribs with all the FREAKOS around.. yeahh.
it totally brigthen up tat ALMOST dull and boring day of mine. had so much
fun watching SALAAM NAMASTE together.. "Sorry..? Exactly!.." lol.i can't believe we influenced YinZhen and Keslyn into watching tat 3-hr movie that was indeed very nice.
i love u loads people!! keep on rawking!!

okayy, not forgetting to ma family.. THANKS to mummy dearest for tipping our bill
juz now. to daddy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U TOO!! hahas. yepps. we share the same
birthday together.. like father, like daugther.. crap! SPECIAL THANKS to kak Lyn aka
cheeky mummy for wishing ma birthday on her blog. it's really SWEET.. awww. my dearest sis, THANKS for ur present. been dying to buy that veronica's cd and finally got it.. awww.. thanks!!

okayy, somehow.. some people that i really was looking forward to wishing me ended up forgetting my birthday. my best friend of 7 years, whose birthday happened to be a few days ahead of mine.. totally forgot my birthday. guess he's too hung over to even be bothered.
cos he went to M.O.S yesterday. i tink u know who u are.. oh wells..
it's ok.of cos , another person would be the guy i wished publicly on my blog..
he too forgot. but hey, wat do expect from a third year student in poly..
he's definitely busyy.. so, its REALLY okayy. but for my best friend.. im REALLY REALLY disappointed..

oh wells.. heck. at least i still enjoyed my day today. especially with all that
was happening at ma cribs.. was really really kewl. thanks people.
love u guys for making my day!! THANKS!!

happy happy thoughts. happy happy mood.

2006-05-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

doom's nearing.

oh goshh! ain't it fast? tmr's like FRIDAY already?! shuckss..
oh well, it's not tat im NOT looking forward for the holidays.. but it
doesn't make any difference this year. I'VE GOT SUPPLEMENTARY CLASSES!!
shitt.. and well, tmr's doom's day. result slips are gonna be out mann.. and i know
that this time, my results like DEVASTATING?? oh goshh.. really baddd.. arghh..

i wish i can choose NOT to go to school.. or maybe NOT take the results??
oh well, FAT HOPE atiqa!! DREAM ON!!

looks like tat's all i gotta say.. let's wait for tmr's verdict yea.

later skater..

oh yeah.. btw..

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO EFIN!!

too bad u're not online.. was supposed to wish u personally.
but i guessed.. i'll make it public then. lols.

2006-05-23T19:42:00.000+08:00

Reality Bites.

hahas.. im back after so long. well, been busy with school lately n of cos, exams.
seriously, the papers jus happen to suck ALOT! i don't tink i managed to scrape
tru tis year's mid-yr. but HECK! anyway, the ultimatum is still the O levels. lols.
but if tis kind of results keep on persisting.. will i ever make it for the Os?

Gosh Atiqa!! u gotta wake up babe.. ain't the time for slacking anymore!!

okayy, enuff blabbering bout school n stuffs. life's still the same ol' shit. nothing much
have change eversince. it's still the same ol' lifestyle im goin tru everyday. oh okayys,
made some new frens. n they're bunch of lovely people n CRAZY. definitely.

later skater..

*__the other side of me__*

the other side of me